Mental Wellness Challenge – 2021, April 23

Mental Wellness Challenge – 2021, April 23

Another week moves on… and that’s a good thing I suppose…

Last week my challenge was to:

  1. Pay it forward. Do something nice for someone.  OUT OF THE BLUE…
  2. Go to bed 15 minutes early each day for the week. Give your body and your mind those 15 extra minutes to rejuvenate.
  3. Sit down with a pen and paper and write a friend a note/letter. Tell that person why they matter in your life.  Share some love.

I hope you were super successful with this…

For me – well – I did OK… had lots of things on my plate this week… didn’t feel especially chipper and wasn’t as attentive to intention as I would have preferred to have been.

 

I did pay it forward.  I was intentional about doing something for another person totally anonymously.  And I will leave that like that.

 

I tried hard to get to bed 15 minutes earlier than I normally do.  In fact – as its tax time and my spouse is an accountant – she was working evenings, and I was able to get to bed pretty early most nights… I think sleep and good rest are pieces that are really missing in my experience and I do work at trying to make my sleep as wholesome as I can.  I started my letter this week, but I didn’t finish it.  This is the piece that I wasn’t as intentional about as I would have liked to have been.  I didn’t get the letter finished or sent off… so – I definitely need to take care of this piece over the next week.


This last week has been work.  Plain and simple work.  I’ve had to push through lots of “not feeling well” and just get the job done.  How’s that line go… “Dog tired boss, dog tired.”  That’s pretty much how I feel the past few days.  Energy depletion…

Tenacity really… I know I have to keep the ball rolling.. or I’ll get really stuck…  I am pretty certain that there are lots and lots of people in the same arena as me… So much crap going on – COVID’s exploding, politicians are more concerned with staying in power and achieving their political goals over public health, lots of folks are getting super frustrated with the restrictions in place to try to keep the pandemic from turning into a firestorm, my own personal challenges with physical health and mental health, family stuff, and on and on… Just so much…

I am a ruminator… I must have 7 mental stomachs and chew on my mental cud… but its not to get the nourishment out of the mental “matter” like a ruminant… it’s a characteristic of mine… whether it comes from my ADHD, my OCD or whatever… I am a worrier… and I can spin on something for far too long without getting any benefit from it…  I do try to stay grounded and limit the mental trap of endless cycles of thoughts rolling around up in my head… I’m not always successful at distracting myself and getting out of the cycle.  In reality, the more fatigued I am, the more likely I am to look at the bottom third or less of my vessel (to be dark – the bottom third is where all the “stuff” tends to settle) and the more likely I am to spin or ruminate negatively.

When I was quite young – grade school – my teachers and parents used to say that I had a tendency to get lost with my head in the clouds… and I would complain about my report cards that I didn’t have my head in the clouds… and I didn’t… My head wasn’t in the clouds… my head was spinning – ruminating about the huge blow up my parents had the night or day before… the fist fight that my brother and father had, or the beating with the belt that I got for staying out too late or for “getting out of dodge” because it was haircut Sunday – and those were never any fun…  Lots of bad juju went on in my experience when I was a kid… and that was the stuff I tended to focus on… not the fluffy clouds…  So – this habit of ruminating has been with me for pretty much as long as I can recall… I sincerely don’t know if I will ever be ever to break it…  (Going back in memory… the negative stuff tends to be my childhood recollections… I know there were laughs and good times.. but they certainly aren’t as prominent in my memories as the $h1t.)

My worrying doesn’t serve me… it keeps my system in a state of alert… I know – intellectually that this is BAD… worrying about stuff I can’t change is like paying interest on a debt I don’t owe… I know this…. I tell myself that exact thing over and over again…  So then – I just keep pushing through it… the worry is a negative distraction from my intentions… from what I want to accomplish… it saps my energy… and I still don’t have much choice except to continue to push through it.

I’ve learned that I have to keep moving – I’ve also learned that I need to be super mindful when I am in spots in my experience like this… I try to feed my intentions more than I let my “automatic worry” consume the energy… and this is not an easy piece to do.

The worry just happens – the intention – well – it has to be intentional – it takes focus and awareness…. And this is why Awareness is such an important part of my wellness model…

My wellness model really is my roadmap.  It’s a piece of paper… in the shape of a strange 8 sided dice… with words on it… but its my road map to being able to work through the rumination – the compulsive part of who I am… It helps me to be – well better…

Truthfully, I’m not likely to stop ruminating about stuff… For my own wellness – I can change my perspective, my focus and my mind… and I can take actual steps to divert energy away from things I can’t change to things that I can… That for me is a step towards wellness…


This week I challenge you to:

  1. Laugh out loud. Read a funny book, watch a funny show, listen to a good joke… but laugh right out loud… the bigger the belly laugh, the better…
  2. Be aware. Take a couple of moments and consider how you are feeling, what you are feeling.
  3. Go for a walk… around the block, around the park… just go for a walk… breath some air.

That’s it – I challenge you!

 

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