Mental Wellness Challenge – 2021, February 05

Mental Wellness Challenge – 2021, February 05

I didn’t do a post last week.  I’ve not been feeling great physically (certainly not COVID related) and didn’t have the extra energy to do this.  Ya, I know – energy to sit at a computer and type… well… it’s the thinking and digging that there wasn’t energy for… Anywho… I feel a commitment to this and it needs to be done – for me…

Two weeks ago I challenged y’all to:

  1. Take a bit of time and do some research on a facet of mental health that interests you. Read a scholarly article on Major Depression, Persistent Depressive Disorder, General Anxiety Disorder, ADD/ADHD, Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria, or any of the myriad of disorders that afflict folks.  OR, maybe read about ways to maintain good mental wellness.
  2. Share what you learn, read, etc with someone you care about! Talk about mental wellness, talk about mental health.
  3. Thursday, January 28, 2021 is Bell’s Let’s Talk day. Take part in some way. Join the conversation!

I spent time, a couple of times, talking about mental wellness – mental health.

I took some time to learn a little more about a crushing disorder called Borderline Personality Disorder.  So often mis-diagnosed, so misunderstood, so stigmatized.

I did participate in Bell’s Let’s Talk Day.  I took time to support a friend who needed my time.  It felt good to just be there for someone.

One step forward – a couple steps back.  Dancing with my depression… And a one, two, three and a one, two, three… don’t really feel like a dancer… and this feels neither like a waltz, polka or any other type of shin digging that I’ve learned along the way… this feels more like the moves a guy makes when walking up a steep icy walkway.  The footwork isn’t as smooth as the predictable left – right – left of a more graceful dance step..

I’ve had some folks ask me – “Aren’t you used to your depression and all the things that go along with it by now?”  I suppose the answer is – SOME.  Ya – I’ve been through these feelings before – the degraded feeling of self-worth, the self-doubt, feeling an ick that so sticky it won’t wash off… but honestly – its the same and its different – concurrently.  I suppose it’s like life…  Take a breath… exhale… now take the same breath again… uhhh… no can do… doesn’t work that way…  not unless you’re using a re-breather under water – etc – and even then – the re-breather has scrubbers that filter the breath…

I’m going to be OK… I know that – I’m just in a crappy spot right now where my physical health is creating some discomfort that is distracting my attention away from my mental health… “I’m feeling sorry for myself for not feeling well…”  That’s allowed.  I’ve asked for help from my Doctor and he’s doing his part… the system doesn’t move as fast as I would like it too and well… its super annoying… but there’s not a bunch I can do about it.  I have to try to keep my perspective… Things could be worse… I KNOW FIRST HAND THINGS COULD BE WORSE… so I have to cut the world a little slack, give myself a little room, a little slack and “manage my expectations”.

Hmmm… there’s a piece eh… Manage my expectations… That’s a piece of my learning about my ADHD that I am just, JJJJUUUUSSSSTTTT starting to maybe come round the corner on… My brain wants immediate results… and the world just doesn’t work that way… does it…  There’s more to this than just patience… There’s recognizing – really starting to understand – needs… and I suppose some of this might be seen as being patient… – “good things come to those that wait”… Lots of different types of patience…  I am still learning to wait…

I’m still just learning… likely learning things I should have picked up in grade school…

At least I’m aware that I’ve more to learn…

This week my challenge is to:

  1. Be appreciative of the kindness shown you by others. Look for it.
  2. Be patient. Be as patient as you can be.
  3. Tell someone in your experience that they matter, that you love them.

That’s it – I challenge you.